Archive for June, 2006

my favorite things

Monday, June 26th, 2006
Raindrops on my face
kittens and stuffed toys
clouds and sunsets
a good novel
being inside the house in a warm bed when it rains hard
the moon (especially when full)
pasta, soup, biscuits, hotdogs, siopao
good music i can sing along with or sleep to
text twist and word factory
uno and blitz
ice cream and chocolate
si tigger at eeyore
wind on the leaves
sunlight through the clouds and the window
birds chirping on the tree outside our house
cool breezes that lift my hair
chopsticks
making elephant cards
taking my picture
tambay sa cafe or kahit saan
watch movies
fiddling with my computer
banging on the piano
singing in the shower
dolphins
the sea, the sea, the sea
waterfalls
skirts worn with sneakers
walking along the shore or bayside
looking in the mirror
browsing through our family pictures
reminiscing good times
watching and listening to friends perform
twix!
window-shopping
blogging and reading other blogs
pagkwentuhan si bj (hehe!)
walking
blue tees
"when the dog bites. when the bee stings. when i’m feeling sad. i simply remember my favorite things and then i don’t feel so bad."
thank goodness i’m easily amused. =) it’s gonna be a bright sunshiny day tomorrow!

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one of those days

Monday, June 26th, 2006

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!

it’s just one of those days when i feel like screaming all over the place….. but i can’t.

it’s one of those days when everything seem so sad and i miss everybody who’s not in iloilo….

it’s just one of those days when i think no one understands me, and i can’t understand myself either.

it’s just one of those rainy days that makes me cranky and gloomy…

it’s just one of those days… when i am most in need of grace.

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doctor, doctor

Thursday, June 15th, 2006
today i felt my immense inadequacy and stared at it in the face. and, well, i survived to learn another day. thank goodness!
i still have lots to learn. and i still have much that i do not know.
but there are several things that i do know, and i believe these matter too:
       i enjoy studying
        i am having fun learning through books and interactions with patients and other doctors
        i want to help people who are sick
        i don’t want to have a monotonous 8 to 5 job
        i am fascinated by the human body
        i am here not because of me alone but because i was brought here
                 or placed
                      or called
                           or all of the above…
        this is one of the world’s deepest needs
        and i find deep joy in doing the work i do,
                kahit engot pa ko ngayon…
andami naming natutunan ngayon. natuto akong kumausap ng patient, mag-interview, kumuha ng patient history at ng physical exam sa adults. bukas naman ay pedia naman kami. exciting ang buhay med! wheee! ang saya! hmm… masaya din siya kase masaya ang stethoscope ko. hehe, may tigger na nakabitin. aliw ako. pati mga patients at mga students na kasama ko. hehe. makahanap pa nga ng stethoscope accessories…. pero mag-aaral muna ko…
       

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kakaibang mga araw

Monday, June 12th, 2006
saturday was… different. nag-house cleaning kami dito sa ivhome in preparation for the first semester. at sobrang dumi ng ivhome kase nga ni-renovate during the summer at never nilinisan until nung sabado. ang toka ko ay cr. first time ko naglinis ng banyo. as in. lahat ng parte ng banyo. lahat tlga. wow. in fairness, pumuti ung banyo. kahit na yellow tlga ung tunay na kulay ng tiles namin! haha! hindi nga, i think i did a good job cleaning it. i mean, for a first-timer that is. hehe. grabe ung pawis ko dun. parang sauna. at least natuwa naman ako sa ginagawa ko.
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yesterday was a different day because i wore pink to church. at di lng un ha. naka violet skirt pa ako. hmmm… i think i might actively wear pink this year… para naman maiba. hehe. but of course i could not be not me. so i wore chuck taylors along with my pink blouse and skirt. bagay naman e! see ….       =====>
kanina naman kakaiba din kase parang ambabait ng lahat ng nakausap ko sa SM! everybody was so polite and helpful. and it doesn’t seem they’re doing it just because i’m a customer and it’s their job. basta parang extra nice sila lahat. ung mga babae sa Executive Optical where i had my glasses fixed were so accommodating. ung babae sa may payong na hydrotech. tinulungan nya ko maghanap ng payong na gusto ko ung kulay (ahem… parang ung kasama ko bumili ng stethoscope…haha!). tapos ung babae naman sa mga clips ang bait din. tinuro nya saken ung papunta sa marcella at broadway gems at naka-smile pa siya. even the people at Zageca, the place sa foodcourt where i bought my dinner, were very nice. sobra. katuwa tlga sila. so un. i really had a very nice weekend.
bukas naman… pasukan na… ahay…

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isn’t it?

Thursday, June 8th, 2006
isn’t it amazing how things could change in an instant?
isn’t it a bit scary to be forced to grow up before your time?
isn’t it sad when people let you down, even when they don’t mean to?
isn’t it ironic when friends like each other, but not at the same time?
isn’t it fun to live with crazy ladies?
isn’t it nice to take a walk every evening?
isn’t it stressful to take an exam you didn’t prepare for?
isn’t it a blessing to have friends who understand?
isn’t it disappointing to always have the wrong timing?
isn’t it flattering to receive compliments?
isn’t it daunting to think of the future?
isn’t it lonely to hide who you truly are from others?
isn’t it easy to lose weight?
isn’t it hard to be truly honest about what you feel?
isn’t it frustrating to always be misunderstood?
isn’t it lovely to own a cat?
isn’t it depressing to rain on your wedding day?
isn’t it romantic to watch the sunset?
isn’t it refreshing to take a shower after jogging?
isn’t it liberating to tell your parents you love them?
isn’t it wonderful to be friends with your brothers?
isn’t it a treat to be able to see the world while still young?
isn’t it fine to drink coffee, shakes, and frappes with dear friends?
isn’t it swell to laugh aloud with classmates?
isn’t it great to be loved or admired?
isn’t it weird that the college registrar is concerned with your grades?
isn’t it admirable when people tell you frankly what they think?
isn’t it comforting to know that there are people to support you?
isn’t it encouraging to have ninangs who pray for you?
isn’t it a gift to wake up every morning?
isn’t it a privilege to be a child of a King?

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kanina at bukas

Wednesday, June 7th, 2006
kanina,
2am na ako nakatulog
12:30 ng tanghali na ako bumangon
nag-enroll
kinabit si tigger sa stethoscope kong bago
at napagalitan ng registrar namin…
               kase hindi daw ako nag-aaral kaya mababa ang grades ko.
kanina,
natulog ulit ako sa hapon
nag-ayos ng mga pictures
uminom ng isang litrong green tea
tumawag sa pamilya ko sa Davao
naglakad sa CPU
               kasama ang roommate ko na si bjo.
bukas,
7am ako dapat gumising
               kase may compre exam kami buong araw…
                             pero di pa ko inaantok…
                                         pa’no na yan…

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mga lalake tlga… pwe!

Monday, June 5th, 2006
hay nako, mga lalake tlga! pwe!
di ko maintindihan! di ko magets! wa’ay pulos!
nakakainis! nakakairita! nakakaiyak!
di na tlga nakakatuwa!
bahala na kung bitter! blog ko to. magcomment na lng kayo or gawa kayo ng blog nyo!
hay nako. mga lalake tlga… pwe!
naiinis ako! naiinis ako! naiinis ako!

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here and back again

Monday, June 5th, 2006
i’m back. in body perhaps. but i doubt if im back in mind and in spirit.
my summer travels are over. and i’ve been there and back again. hopefully changed, hopefully not the same. i don’t know yet.
before leaving iloilo i received all my grades. they were quite not what i wanted. but they were nothing more nor less than what i have given. so i guess there is some justice in it all. and now i return to a compre exam this thursday. prepared? me? hardly.
before i left the country i received jarring news from a dear dear kuya of mine and it rocked my world and shook my faith. until now i’m still reeling from the blow. and i think it will take me a long time still to understand and to accept. but i hope i can easily move on.
when out of the country i saw and felt and heard and smelled and tasted many different things. and i know it has affected me one way or another. i was stressed out to find myself unable to communicate easily. i was amazed by the beauty i saw all around me, the sunsets, the mountains, the plants and the seas. i was saddened by the apathy of the people and the effects of sin and the wrong choices of man. i was moved to meet people who give their lives to others. and i’m frustrated by others who step on other people just to get to the top. i felt and saw and heard many others. i hope i remember them all and be able to integrate my learnings in my life now.
as i returned, i received news from another friend of mine. and this made my heart full. i can only give praises to my God who allowed all things to work for good. i am constantly amazed at the workings of God’s hand in his life and to our youth. i am blessed by his writings, his stories, his life. i am blessed so much just to know he is growing in the Lord. i am really glad to receive this good news from him.
as i returned here in iloilo, another friend of mine shocked me with his own news. this i have not prepared for. and i don’t know whether to laugh or cry or blush. as it is, i just kept quiet and sighed.
hay. i’m back. and life is again staring me in the face. i’m not quite sure i’m ready to stare back. i don’t know if i have the energy, the strength, or the interest to do so. i hope so. i need to. other than that, i’m ok.

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